emotionally exhausted

I envy the people who have civil encounters with their child's other parent. This has been such an emotional couple of days. Im behind on homework, I cant sleep, and to top it off when Im stressed out I eat! I have been treating this blog like a journal that I can express my thoughts and feelings. I hope no one is offended by my posts. I feel that the blog has been my vice this last month or so. I honestly feel bi-polar. One day I will be happy and have energy to take on all the challenges the day holds, and the next day I have to literally crawl to the bathroom to take a shower and get ready for work. Im trying to hard to stay positive but I just cant seem to keep up the facade for more than a day. This might sound a little cliche but if I didn't have Caleb I don't think I would do anything that I am doing right now. I don't think I would have the drive to go to school, and I don't think I would think much about my future. He is defiantly my driving force for everything I do. Today Caleb wanted to have popcorn and watch a movie. So he climbed on the counter and grabbed two bowls for us. He told me he wanted the one that said chicken soup on it. I said "ok but you have to be really careful because that bowl used to be your Great-Grandpa's popcorn bowl and that is very special to me. You would have loved him Caleb. He was a great man. He used to work on cars and big logging trucks." Caleb said,"Mom I will be so careful. Can I work on big trucks when I get big like my Great-Grandpa?" I told him yes and sent him to the living room with his popcorn. I started to cry. It was so sweet and I wish he could have known his Great-Grandpa. I feel like an emotional wreck lately. Like on the way to work the other day I heard they Carrie Underwood song "Temporary Home" and I started bawling when I was singing to it. What the heck is wrong with me! Well I better get some other homework done. Have not even started my Anthropology homework that was due Saturday.